Apologies

This morning I'm more emotional but I think it is mainly because I hardly slept. Needles in the arms is not fun. Have you ever tried to sleep with your arms straight? Other interesting things, I pee two cups at a time. Who knew. If you are pumped full of fluids all night you are going to be bugging the nurses to watch you pee every two to three hours. I feel fine, so the last times I went by myself with out calling the nurse. Felt like a rebel.

 Just talked to the PA and she said everything is looking good. My blood is a little low (don't really know what that means a 28) and my blood pressure is low but it always is so I'm not too concerned about that. I can go home after I get my Rhogam shot. Yeah, my own bed and no needles. I can't wait. I have no pain and feel great considering. My recover should be minimal. Just take it easy today and tomorrow. No exercise or heavy lifting for the next several weeks depending on my next doctors appointment in two weeks.

I've realized what makes me cry - apologies. So please don't give them. Ask me things like, how was the hospital staff, how's your energy, do you guys need any help (which honestly right now we are good), pretty much anything besides an apology. I'm sad for our loss and wish I was still pregnant. It is very weird to realize that I'm not! But I don't want to dwell on that. I want to think about the beautiful ones I have at home and an amazing husband that I get to sleep next to tonight. I want to think about my upcoming summer trips and the craziness of trying to sell our house. I know you are sorry for our loss and I appreciate it, I just don't want to talk about it. I hope that makes sense.

Thank you for all the prayers and support. It means so much to us. We are grateful I'm healthy and doing well and that we can try again in a few months. I'm so grateful to go through this with Eric and that we both have a clear understanding that this is for the best. We know that Heavenly Father is  mindful of our little family and that he has the greater plan.