I laid in bed last night thinking of all the things I failed to express.
I marvel at the tender mercies that are given to us throughout our lives. I have heard countless stories of ways individuals and families have felt prepared in unique ways to deal with the tragedies their families have experienced. I feel that this is one of the many ways Heavenly Father expresses his love for us. We must deal with difficulties in this life but He is there carrying us along.
But wait! What about the most trying time in my life? I STILL question why and have failed to accept. Was I prepared to deal with that hardship? No. I don't feel like I was prepared in any way. How can I justify these comments when I haven't always felt this way. Now, after many years, I can look back to see how I became a better person or how Eric was prepared to help me through such a hard time. I've learned where I have been in the wrong and have learned to empathize with others who deal with similar things.
Perhaps we are not prepared in every trail but that as we learn to accept them and Heavenly Father's will for us we can feel peace and calmness despite the heartache. Maybe it is only after the acceptance that our eyes can truly be open to the tender mercies of the Lord. I've realized that I need to learn to accept one of the hardest times of my life and to STOP questioning. This is going to be hard.
I think there are two ways we question hardship. One - why did this happen to me? Two - why did this happen (so I can learn how to avoid it in the future)? The second way is a health and righteous way to question. Were the first will get you no where and typically is unanswerable. I'm excited to change my way of thinking when hardships come and to look for the many tender mercies and blessings that come with them.
